John 8 - THE I AM BEFORE
ABRAHAM
Introduction
In my many years of
interfaith dialogues, I think this question has come up like one hundred times.
"But isn't the text clear that Yeshua said: Before Abraham was I am? What
can this mean if not that he's God, since the text plainly adds that people
wanted to stone him after hearing
this?"
Well, the problem is that
this verse is being isolated, not only from its context but also from the whole narrative techniques, and even the theological system that are
constantly used in the book of John. In other
words, the book of John follows a series of patterns that become, so to say, the blueprints to understand the text. I must be honest, it's
not easy for common people to see the pattern,
and most theologians ignore it, but someone with basic notions of literature (and of course of Judaism) will see them everywhere.
So, in a real life,
face-to-face dialogue, I don't have the time to go through the book of John step
by step and show them the patterns. In a face-to-face dialogue people tend to
abruptly change from one subject to another, especially when they've got
queries, they will ask every and any question that comes to their mind and they
will demand short answers for each one of them. The more complex a topic is,
the more difficult to give a short answer is. So now
that I've got some time, let's give some important clues and let's hope
everyone will see with me the same patterns.
A - WHY THE AUDIENCE IS
SECONDARY
First of all, in the book
of John, what really matters is Yeshua's message. What the audience thinks or says about Yeshua or his message is secondary, and at times
irrelevant. People should not put
their focus on how the audience understood Yeshua's message, because, in few
words, people in the book of John DO NOT understand Yeshua's message.
Everything that happens
AROUND the message is just a literary device, probably never happened in real life (See how John contradicts the synoptic Gospels in
several occasions).
There are many precedents
in Jewish literature. The biggest example would be the Zohar.
What really matters in the
Zohar is its message; all those stories about Rabbi Shimon bar Yohai travelling to Cappadocia, meeting kids in the street that happen to be
the Shekhina... all those things
are literary devices that connect one teaching with the next. It doesn't matter
if it happened literally in real life, because it probably never did. Yeshua
cleanses the temple at the beginning
of his ministry in John, but in the Synoptic Gospels the cleansing of the
Temple (which threatened the Roman peace that people "enjoyed" in
Judea and produced a terrible agitation)
is one of the main things that caused him to be arrested and executed. So it is
very unlikely that he did this at the beginning of his ministry, let alone
that he did it twice. It's three Gospels
against one. All of this is because John's stories should not be taken
literally. John is a spiritual (mystical) book,
with spiritual (mystical) teachings, so rule number one, Stop reading John as if it was a history book. It isn't. The message isn't
straightforward either; it always hints to
something deeper.
Rule number two, You must
notice the author (or authors) make constant use of a literary device called the "technique of misunderstanding ". Yeshua
means one thing, and the people understand
something completely different. Sometimes the author tells us what Yeshua meant to say, and other times the author wants us to find the meaning by
ourselves. The narrator wants the
reader to feel superior - either by reading or studying - to the obviously less intelligent characters in the story. From Yeshua's first preaching until
the end of the book, Yeshua is constantly
misunderstood by those who are listening. Hence the reason that the audience's opinion is secondary or even irrelevant.
First preaching, Yeshua
cleanses the temple. Then he says: Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days (John 2:19). What
else can he mean? He's in the Temple! The Judeans thought
he was talking of the building, but he was talking about his own body (v.21), because
as we know, it is taught that the body is a Temple for the Shekhina.
Chapter 3, Yeshua meets
Nicodemus and he tells him that he must be born again. Even though this is a Pharisaic teaching and Nicodemus knows (or should know) about
it, he asks concerning a literal
birth: Can a person enter again into his mother's womb to be born? (John
3:4).
By the time we reach our
third example the thing starts to get even comical. Yeshua sits down by a well and a Samaritan woman comes to draw water. Yeshua talks of
giving her living water (which
would also mean: running water). The woman is thinking about the water in the
well.
"You have nothing to
draw with and the well is deep" (John 4:11). Yeshua
keeps talking about his water,
and the woman keeps thinking of literal water. Yeshua doesn't correct her at
all, he just goes with it to the point he wants to make.
Later in the same chapter,
the disciples tell him to eat something, and he talks about the Torah (the will of the Father) being his food, but they don't understand. They
think that maybe someone brought him extra
food (John 4:33).
In chapter 5, after healing
someone on Shabbat, Yeshua says: My Father works to this day and so I too work. He's clearly talking of doing good things and correcting
the world, which can also be done
on Shabbat. But the audience accuses him of two sins here: of Breaking Shabbat
and making himself equal to God (John 5:18). To this
point, I don't need to say that the accusation is false,
because actually, if Yeshua really broke Shabbat, he's a false Messiah, because
Messiah comes to do and teach the Torah, not to break it. So those Christians
who side with the audience are causing a
disservice to Yeshua's cause. In the text he defends himself from the second accusation: he tries to explain how's the relationship between
the Father and the Son and he
says the Son can do nothing by his own. It is the Father who gives him power
and entrusts him with authority. This means he's not making himself equal to
God.
In chapter 6 Yeshua says
he's the bread that came down from heaven; an obvious metaphor based on their previous mention of the manna. But people understand here
that he literally descended from the sky like
an alien. Can't you see how at times this can get really idiotic?
In chapter 7 Yeshua says he
will go where people cannot find him. The author does not explain what Yeshua meant, but the audience come up with all kind of theories.
"Will he go to the Greeks?"
When we arrive to chapter
8, Yeshua is teaching in the Temple, and he's found in the middle of a heated debate with certain Judeans that seem to hate him. Precisely
because of this, the "literary technique of
misunderstanding" is used more than in any other chapter. Yeshua says his Father is his witness. The audience is thinking of a biological
father (John 8:18-19). Yeshua says: "Where I go you cannot come" and they think he was going
to kill himself (John 8:22).
Yeshua speaks of He who
sent him, they don't know who is he talking about (8:27). Yeshua
tells them "you'll be free", he meant from sin, but they understood
this to be free from slavery (8:33).
Now Yeshua is talking to a
group that seeks to kill him (never forget this, because Yeshua's message in this portion is not ABOUT ALL JEWS; that would be plainly
anti-semitic; Yeshua himself says that
"Salvation is of the Jews"). He's talking to what we call in Judaism:
the Erev- Rav (the mixed multitude): people who are externally Jewish but inside
they are evil, selfish, seeking
their own glory, money.... etc.
So, we arrive to this point
and Yeshua tells them they are the sons of their father, and they claim that their father is Abraham, and God himself is their Father...
etc. Yeshua tells them they are
sons of Satan, because they do according to their father's deeds, and since
they want to kill him, they reflect the deeds of Satan, not of Abraham. They think
he's crazy. Yeshua repeats that if they keep
his word (which is the word of God), they will never see death. And again, they take this literally. "Even Abraham - who did God's will
- died!", they say (8:52).
Yeshua says Abraham
rejoiced at the thought of seeing his day, he saw it and was glad (John 8:56). What is this day Yeshua is talking about? The day of the Messianic
era, the day of Messiah, the day of
resurrection, the day of redemption. This is alluding to the Akeida (Isaac's sacrifice), as it is written: "On the third day, Abraham lifted up
his eyes and saw the Place afar off"
(Genesis 22:4). This is a mystical
teaching, as Yonah came out of the belly of Sheol at the third day (Yonah 1:17, 2:2).
"From afar off" refers to a distant future time, referring to the resurrection of the dead in the Messianic era, as there are many
midrashim that connect the Akeida
with the topic of resurrection (cf. Pirkei d'Rabbi Eliezer
Ch 30), and other interpretations connect
Isaac and also the title given to him - Naar (young man) - with the spiritual
Messianic force of Messiah ben Yosef (cf. Kol haTor 1:23).
But did the audience
understand anything of this? No. They were mad at him, they thought he was crazy, and they didn't have time nor will to analyze with spiritual
eyes what he was talking about.
They actually understood the opposite of what Yeshua was saying. "You are
not even fifty years old, and you have seen Abraham?" (John
8:57). Yeshua didn't say that he met Abraham.
What he said is that Abraham saw his day, the day of Messiah, and the day in
which those who follow God's word will never see death. What the audience is
understanding has nothing to do with what
Yeshua is saying! But then, Yeshua uses this misunderstanding to teach something even deeper.
"Amen I tell you,
before Abraham was, I am" (John 8:58).
B – SYMBOLISM
One of the most frequently
literary techniques used in John is that of symbolism. The very beginning of the book uses the symbol of "the Word" and the
"Light", which are also represented
throughout the book with the symbols of "water" and "food".
Yeshua himself is defined through a series of
symbols, such as bread, and Yeshua himself is a symbol of God's will on earth. Through all these symbols, the book of John is one of the
earliest works to dive into the
mystical definition, status, attributes, and characteristics of "The
Tzaddik" (the righteous person). If one
could see past the figure of Yeshua, who is the hero of the story, one can actually see that in John there's everything one needs to know about
the figure of the Tzaddik and their
relationship with God and with people. Yeshua is a symbol for the Tzaddik, and many of the symbols used to define Yeshua in the book of John are
also found in mystical literature
such as the Zohar, in reference to the Tzaddik (the saint one) of the
generation. In the Zohar the Tzaddik is Shimon bar Yohai. In the mystical Gospel of
Thomas, it is said of Yaakov
the Just (Yeshua's brother, and the righteous person who lead the Nazarene
movement after him), that "for his sake heaven and earth were created" (Thomas
#12).
In other words: Whatever we
find about the "Tzaddik" in Jewish literature is already codified in the book of John through the figure of Yeshua. This is important because
John is not saying in any
moment at all that Yeshua is God. In chapter 10 Yeshua is directly accused of
making himself equal to God, and he defends himself using a very well known
Psalm (82:6): "I have said you all
are God" (Eloqim atem). The judges of Israel are called God, and yet you
accuse me because I said I'm God's son! It doesn't make any sense! I didn't say
any blasphemy here! I do the will
of God, we have a relationship of will and obedience, and I take care of his
business here on earth! So I and the Father are one. I'm not saying I am God. I
also said that I want the people
and I to be one. So what's the problem?
C – GRAMMAR
Let's go back to our
"Before Abraham was, I am" (John 8:58). Is the "I am" used here the Sacred Name? Is that the reason
people wanted to stone him? The answer is
No. In the Greek manuscripts Yeshua says: "ego eimi" (It's me, I am).
He uses this phrase several times in the Gospels with the sense of "it's
me". In the story of the Samaritan woman,
she says: I know that the Messiah is coming. When he comes, he will explain everything to us. Yeshua answers: ego eimi (I am, it's me), the one who
is talking to you. In this context
he means he's the Messiah. When he walks on the water, the disciples see a
figure in the distance and think it's a ghost. Yeshua tells them: ego eimi (it's
me), don't be afraid. Even in the
story when Yeshua heals a blind man and people is asking about him, the blind
man says "ego eimi (it's me, I am) the blind man". So you see, the
expression has nothing to do with the Sacred
Name. It simply means it's me, or I am, like when he says: "I am (ego
eimi) from above - [you are from below]" (John
8:23).
The equivalent in Hebrew is
"Ani Hu" (I am, it's me). Now, when
we check the famous story in the burning bush, in which God tells his Name to Moses, most Bibles translate the Name as "I am that I am".
When people connect this Name with Yeshua's "I am", they are (a)
relying on an English rendering instead of the original text and (b) making a
grave mistake.
First of all, in the
original Hebrew, the Sacred Name is: "Ehyeh asher ehyeh". Even though
we might want to translate it as "I am that I am" for reading
comfort, the truth is that the Name is in future
tense. It literally reads as "I will be that I will be". This means
that the name has NOTHING to do with what
Yeshua said. Making the connection through English translations is just a fabricated sophistry that intentionally ignores the fact that the
expressions are not the same.
Yeshua says "Ani Hu" (It's me, I am), and God says that his name is
"Ehyeh" (I shall be).
"And thus you shall
say to the children of Israel, Ehyeh (I shall be) has sent me unto you" (Exodus 3:14).
What about the Greek? Does
the Septuagint use "Ego Eimi" (I am) as God's Name? Again, the truth is that No, it doesn't. In the LXX God's Name is "Ho On"
(The Being One). "And thus you shall say
to the children of Israel, Ho On (The being One) has sent me unto you".
Right, the expression ego eimi (I am) is used in the text for a moment, but it's
NOT part of God's name.
It's only used to emphasize
the person who is talking, like in many other verses by many other different characters.
Moses says: "When they
ask me about his name, what will I respond to them? And God said to Moses: I am Ho On (I am the Being One)". The idea that God's Name is:
'ego eimi' is not supported by the rules of
hermeneutics; it's a wishful thought.
D - THE I AM THING
So, we have seen some
important elements to take into consideration before trying to understand this famous verse:
1 - Yeshua's 'I am' is not
related to the Sacred Name. At all.
2 - Yeshua didn't think to
be God.
3 - the audience
misunderstand Yeshua.
4 - so the audience's
reaction to Yeshua's words is irrelevant.
5 - Yeshua's words are
deeper than appear on the surface.
6 - Yeshua is a whole
symbol that represents mystical concepts.
7 - In the immediate
context, Yeshua is talking of following the Word of God which makes one never to see death.
8 - Abraham saw Yeshua's
day and was glad. The day of Messiah, the day of Messianic era, the day of resurrection.
Now, using the audience's
misunderstanding, Yeshua says something even deeper. "Before
Abraham was even born, it's me".
It's me, the Messiah, the character that represents the final redemption
of the world, the resurrection of the dead, and the will of God on earth. Like Sefer
Yetzirah says: "The end is embedded in the beginning" (Yetzirah 1:7). The last tool of
redemption is also the first. The Soul of Messiah exists before the world was created (cf. Pesakhim 54a). "He was chosen of
God before the creation of the world and forever" (Hanokh 48:6). There are two thrones in
Heaven, and according to Rabbi Akiva, one is for God, and one is for Messiah (Hagiga 14a, cf. Hanokh 49:2, 4).
Obviously the person meant to be Messiah is born in this world naturally
through a father and a mother. But the mystical soul of Messiah is ready, in Heaven, waiting
to descend on this righteous man. He will then realize who he is and what his mission will
be (cf. Arizal, Arba Meot Shekel Kesef p. 241).
E – KABBALAH
It is taught in Kabbalah that Messiah's soul is rooted on the highest
point of the highest Sefirah: Keter of Keter, in other words, Atika Kadisha (the Holy Ancient one), as
it is written: I was seeing in night visions and there was before me like a son of man coming
with the clouds, and he came near to [the level of] Atik Yomim (the Ancient of Days)... and
he was given authority..." (Daniel 7:13).
This figure seen in the vision is the Messiah (Rashi).
Atika Kadisha is the highest level of Keter, above the triple column
structure in the Sefirot.
Atika Kadisha transcends time and space, it transcends it all. The Soul
of Messiah, which is the Yekhida (the unifying Soul of all Israel) is rooted on this level of
Keter.
Interestingly, it is from this level, the skull of Atika Kadisha, where
the dew comes from. The dew that resurrects the dead (Zohar
III: 128b, Idra Rabba). And this is how
everything Yeshua was talking about in this section is connected, even though the audience
only saw random sentences and misunderstood everything to the point of picking stones to
stone him.
-Xus Casal -